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Do you hear you?

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I’ve been exploring some text art. Much of it can be seen in a few ways. “Do you hear you?” Originally came to me after hearing someone saying some fu[ked thing. I was taken aback. Clearly the country/world is divided on many topics. No magical being is coming to put things right, so we have to each try a little bit harder.

It seems that not everyone has a moral compass. I feel like I’m living in the twilight zone sometimes, for real.

I was looking at the painting again today & was reflecting on myself. Do I hear me when I talk to my kids? In my art?

Am I sending the right messages?

Am I being genuine? Kind? My best self?

Ultimately anyone reading this painting would take a moment to consider their conscience.

Do you hear you in your every decision?

Are you following the right path? Ethically? Are you satisfied with your career? Are you holding onto toxic relationships?

What is holding you back from being your best, true self?

For me, I feel as though I’ve gotten a bit complacent. I do a lot of the same things. I have all of these grand goals, but am dealing with a lot of overwhelm.

I want to take life on more purposefully.

I want to model more kindness to my children & to be more physically active. I want to be more political with my art, to share my passions. I’ve been too safe in a lot of ways. I’d like to step up out of my comfort zone & be more bold as my paintings can be, to ROAR!

Feel free to hold me accountable, repeat it back at me “Do you hear you?”

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Letting go

I had my open studio today & it was pretty successful in that I think I’ve got some commissions coming my way, but I didn’t sell much of the huge inventory of art I already have. I need to figure out a next step. I’m thinking I need to start posting on saatchi.

Even though I have SO MUCH ART, I always feel like I need to do more before a show. What’s that about? Anyway, while I was supposed to be cleaning last night, I painted this over an older work.

“River Reflections” 20”x20”x1.5” acrylic on stretched canvas by June Jewell. $550+ shipping

“River Reflections” 20”x20”x1.5” acrylic on stretched canvas by June Jewell. $550+ shipping

I let go. I let go in a way I haven’t done with my art in a long time. I gave myself permission to go over favorite parts & in the process made new faves. It’s got a pretty ugliness about it that I want to fix, but know I shouldn’t.

I posted this on insta & while typing this, I got a comment “I love this, June!”

A few years back, a friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer (she’s cancer free now!) & I didn’t have money to contribute to the mounting costs, so I thought about how I could raise funds. I started doing these kind of meditative paintings. I contemplated mortality, stressors, what’s really important to me & I did these therapeutic (though not very aesthetically pleasing) abstract works. They weren’t the type of thing I thought anyone would like.

The process, though, was something I thought others could benefit from, so I taught classes. Anyway, I’ll get back to teaching one day. The point I was making was that I haven’t given myself that much freedom to just make in years. It’s almost always about the process for me, but I often abandon art, because I get stuck & want to start fresh.

I challenge you to try something right now. Take any marking tool you can find be it pencil, pen, highlighter, crayons, paints. Just draw. Make lines. Feel what it feels like. I hear this ALL THE TIME “I can barely draw a straight line (or stick figure or circle)”

Don’t worry about that. Let go for a moment. Get messy with your thoughts & on paper & report back.

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Creative Business Q&A

It's happened again. I've gone months without even thinking about my blog. :|

So much has happened. I am taking part in a number of projects right now. I have started a drop-in play toddler program at the local roller skating rink, I've created & sold a bunch of paintings, taken part in 8 exhibits, I'm taking part in #100dayproject in which I'm trying to make & market my first collection....maybe 2, taking 2 courses on creative business, as well as being mom & wife. 

I will hopefully loop back around to the other projects, but today I want to share some of the questions that were asked of one of the courses I'm taking. I don't give much thought to the past. Sometimes when I paint, I feel like I just paint, but I get a sense it's more than that & answering these questions really made me reflect on my 'Why?' 

Q: What is the first memory you have connected to your creating art?

A: Apparently I was quite creative very early on, but my earliest art memory is from around age 9(?). I did a chalk pastel drawing of Edvard Munch’s ‘The Scream’ My mom placed it over the photo on the calendar in our kitchen. She turned many months over, always replacing the drawing over the calendar’s picture. The next year it was a different painting. Before that, I felt like the thing to aspire to was to get on the fridge, but this was different. This was seeing that someone, even if it was my mom saw a place for my art in the world. 

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Q: What is the most profound experience you’ve had as an artist in your life (if you had to pick just one, in this moment)?

A:When a friend got cancer, I didn’t have any money to give her, so I thought of the next best thing, I would raise funds by selling paintings & giving her the proceeds. The paintings weren’t really selling as I had hoped. This news along with other life dramas, I began to sink myself into my work, doing a lot of meditative painting & a lot of visualization which lead to some (not very beautiful, but very cathartic) abstract works. 

I decided to hold a class to teach one particular method I had developed for my own “art therapy.” It was pretty successful & I ended up doing a few more of these classes, but soon got a little burnt out as I was bringing up a lot of my own junk along with my students. I would like to return to doing these classes as I feel it benefited a lot of people. 

Q: How are the two connected?

A: At first glance the 2 might not have much in common, but I think more about all that was going on in my life around age 9 & about how I likely suppressed a fair amount, which in turn lead me to seek an outlet in my work later on.