I had my open studio today & it was pretty successful in that I think I’ve got some commissions coming my way, but I didn’t sell much of the huge inventory of art I already have. I need to figure out a next step. I’m thinking I need to start posting on saatchi.
Even though I have SO MUCH ART, I always feel like I need to do more before a show. What’s that about? Anyway, while I was supposed to be cleaning last night, I painted this over an older work.
I let go. I let go in a way I haven’t done with my art in a long time. I gave myself permission to go over favorite parts & in the process made new faves. It’s got a pretty ugliness about it that I want to fix, but know I shouldn’t.
I posted this on insta & while typing this, I got a comment “I love this, June!”
A few years back, a friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer (she’s cancer free now!) & I didn’t have money to contribute to the mounting costs, so I thought about how I could raise funds. I started doing these kind of meditative paintings. I contemplated mortality, stressors, what’s really important to me & I did these therapeutic (though not very aesthetically pleasing) abstract works. They weren’t the type of thing I thought anyone would like.
The process, though, was something I thought others could benefit from, so I taught classes. Anyway, I’ll get back to teaching one day. The point I was making was that I haven’t given myself that much freedom to just make in years. It’s almost always about the process for me, but I often abandon art, because I get stuck & want to start fresh.
I challenge you to try something right now. Take any marking tool you can find be it pencil, pen, highlighter, crayons, paints. Just draw. Make lines. Feel what it feels like. I hear this ALL THE TIME “I can barely draw a straight line (or stick figure or circle)”
Don’t worry about that. Let go for a moment. Get messy with your thoughts & on paper & report back.